| ...since i was here...
i had dinner with marion tonight and i just remembered how much i missed the pissyppl.
lol its been a while now and its been a while since i have been home
its nice
i miss it
the feeling of being just me
no matter how much i have or how little, i have a nice life here
i belong
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| yay so it has been another couple of month since i posted on this stupid thing, i dont even know who is still left.
but while having happy loving time at moho with new friends and old, i realized one thing that i had to post here.
just like how myspace and facebook will never replace this thing and livejournal, i cant replace my past by pretending things havent happened. and really looking back ^^ it was not so bad. old wounds are there to hurt, but with time everything dulls away, even memories and hatred.
for the first time in about 3 years i stepped foot into that cursed blue saturn... and you know the world didn't end. ^^
last night, i think i grew up, or saw that i have. leonord and i could have civil conversations now and leah and i could talk about the past. life is moving onward just like time, and not everyone has to be tied down to things they do not want to.
last night at moho, with leah there, i found a new comfort in knowing that i could live through my experiences without breaking. that even if for the rest of my life i have to carry the burden of being tinted by the devil i can still have my life. new friends, new comfort, new me. ^^
i have changed. alot in fact since the first time i walked through the gates of mt holyoke. for the first time i realized how much i owe Ryan and Karen, and how in love with this place I am even when things don't always go my way. Today i am older, today i am no longer lost, timid and confused.
at holyoke i have found me, and on the island my home. in my past comfort.
Looking back with leah i realized how lucky I am to have meci there for me for prom, and kenshin at cader beach, how much i loved silly dennis, kristine moments, and ap studio. I cant believe to that for so long i blocked out so many memories to forget one... even this xanga was made by peter, folly1718 made for foo. there are millions of silly moments with jermery on the keran trip home, and harvard yale night. Max moments in high school, and Kimkim Mike time. ^^
all in all, I am fortunate to have known them, to be able to love them, and have them want to spend time with me. I wish i could do it all over again ^^
Love, ALWAYS
Kerning (crazyasiangirl)
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| kerning hates life
and she hates essays
all nighters
and no sleep
i wants my cuddle time, and my none stress days back
::CRYS::
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| computer science is going to be the end of the world for all the wrong reasons
hahaha oh dear god
X___X ::dies::
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| okay so yeah i havent updated for a while... i kinda forgot about it again... opis
so appparently more people read this thingy than i expected
HELLO unspected people ::waves::
anyway kerning = confusion once again
end of the world!
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